Where am I

Where am I
when I compare
with those have gone pass
into the realm of
intellectual discourse
initiated and incepted into
the circles of esteem
producing standard works
and euphoric couplets
for that is where I want to be
a near future I hope I shall be in.

Syed Ad'ha
17 February 2009
12am
Toad Hall@A007

I WAS ONCE 23

I was once 23
completing my studies
waiting to venture
into the working community

I was once 23
wondering what was ahead
waiting to test me
and now I know with certainty

I was once 23
reflecting back the last ten years of my life
for I am now 33, I shall be ready hopefully
like I was when I was 23.

Syed Ad'ha
2 January 2009
3:40pm

AM I AT THE DOOR

Am I at the door
of the entrance
into the garden
of the pious

Am I at the door
of the entrance
into the realm
of the sinner

I am on the doors
on my right is
the domain of the righteous
on my left is
the abode of the wrong-doer

O Lord! Guide me
to be the one
who knocks at the door
of the pious and righteous
until it comes a time
when the door I am at
opens with salutation of peace
for certainly it is
ever-lasting felicity I have achieved.

Syed Ad'ha
28 December 2008
5:15am

Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow

Yesterday passes by
what can I do about it
since the day has gone by

Today is going by
I can do something about it
before the day goes by

Tomorrow will come by
let me prepare for it
I shall be delighted as it passes me by.

Syed Ad'ha
ANU/Toad Hall/Room A309
1 October 2008
4:33pm

Never Have I Imagine

Never have I imagine
to be at ANU among the many applicants
enrolled in a world class faculty
a postgraduate degree in sight I am sure

Never have I imagine
to be under the guardian and protection
of Anthony Milner whom I have met once for a chat
are you still there and reading this email dear Sir?

Never have I imagine
that it is Peter Borschberg
who will guide me to a place of self-discovery
at ANU he say I will be intellectually better

Never have I imagine
to be embraced by a lady of of good-heartedness
it is Siaan Matthews of penetrating intelligence
with friendly love, caringness and comforting words she makes me feel near

Never have I imagine
to be embraced by a lady of consistent concern
for the listening ear, motivation and advice she always give
it is Mary Kilcline Cody whom I referring to here

Never have I imagine
to write 24,000 word essays in one semester
covering Islam, security, propaganda and asia-pacific
I must perservere to do well for the training is for the future

Never have I imagine
that all that I have never imagine
is now a possibility due to His Grace and kindness from those names above
pray for me dearest well-wishers for I need it to achieve the reason why I am here.


Syed Ad'ha
ANU/Toad Hall
2:00am

Mid Day Of My Life

I am in the mid day of my life
Looking back at what I have done
Sins and wrong doings engulf my heart
Repentance is imminent I must try

I am in the mid day of my life
Reflecting the deeds that I have done
Good and evil all meshed in one
The errors must be corrected I must strive

I am in the mid day of my life
Counting the blessings that I have till now
Family, friends, wealth and health all that I have
Thank you O ALLAH for these gifts in my life

I am in the mid day of my life
Trials and tribulations that I have surpassed
Shaping me to be stronger and deeper in faith I must arrive
All praises be unto You O ALLAH the Patron of my life

I am in the mid day of my life
While others are between dawn and dusk of their lives
Whichever part of the day our lives are in
We must continue our pursuit for excellence indeed.

Syed Ad'ha
14 June 2008
2:07am

From Which Lense Shall I See?

From which lense shall I see
For the lense of the political is always magnifying me
That human beings are manipulating more than assisting
Brings sadness and grief to the world that we live in

From which lense shall I see
For the lense of the sociological is often envisioning me
That men are of many typologies and perspectives it is
Through it I see hope and understanding is abound indeed

From which lense shall I see
For the lense of the spiritual is ever-guiding me
That God is where our hope and focus should be in
Enlighten my heart and uplift my soul in perpectual certainty

From which lense shall I see
These lenses of life are always causing happiness, worry and weariness in me
The political, sociological and spiritual all meshed in me
Competing my heart, my mind and my soul thus never at ease

From which lense shall I see
The lenses of truths that has been entrusted onto me
To establish prayers and do good deeds is the way indeed
Putting my worries and weariness finally at ease

From which lense shall I see
With the lenses of faith, hope and forgiveness I shall see
Which every man can see with if he believes
That these are the lenses of life which are ever-sustaining.

Syed Ad'ha
6 May 2008
12:43pm